Wow. That was quite a lot like looking in the mirror.
I’m not sure what the journey beyond this stage has looked like for you (this is the first of your writing I’ve read), but I deeply appreciate how you’ve concluded: “It gets better”.

I’ve likewise struggled with debilitating fear and anxiety, and have also likewise experienced the “better”. But talking about the “better” has, for me, felt unwelcomed — like to say there is hope for “improvement” or “better” is to either reveal I never struggled at all and am a poser (thanks a lot), or is to wield an accusing finger at others, demanding they “get over it”.

Of course, I intend neither, but both perceived reactions cause me to avoid talking about it from a position of hope and healing. (Ironically, the percieved reaction could just be another voice of anxiety…) o.O

So thanks.

Thanks for hinting at the healing, promising hope, and being a light in such a dark corner.